I miss

… my boyfriend. who is really my ex-boyfriend but i’m not ready for the ex yet. and truthfully is actually HER boyfriend but i’m pretending she’s not real.

but i miss him.

and not just seeing him, which i do daily at work where he acts like i am an annoying fly buzzing about and ruining his day.

but i miss being with him. watching movies with him, cuddling with him.

every time i see him i want to nuzzle my face into his shoulder like i always would. and i can’t. how frigging dumb is that?

he goesl to the discount theater, eats sushi, and  watches the astros now. fuck that.

fuck him completeley changning everything i love about him for HER.

all of her inane friends tag them everywhere they go and like every single status he updates with.

i’m sick of it.

he’s not happy. he’s not. i don’t know what this is.

i see him every day and i know he’s not happy.

but why?

why does he want to settle for being unhappy.

i miss him.

i miss him.

i miss him.